pants!

I just finished making Catherine 7 pairs of

polar fleece pants for $12 (total!). I'm getting more organised with the end of season sales now... yay!

2009 Irish Dancing Championships (New Zealand)

Went to see the championships this weekend. So much has changed... especially the costumes... and moves we never would have been allowed to do in "my day"... but the standard is also really amazing too.

Well... these are the championship winners this year, and Chris (boy second on the left) won the scholorship to the worlds second year in a row... and to think - I knew him when he was a squirt. lol.

Randomness of all randomness

Random things I find sometimes.

Yes that's a banana in a jar of water... why?

My big singing debut on the internet will have to wait... I'm having trouble uploading.

oh well...On with my day! bye!

Delicously morbid

I wrote a song! It's based on one of my favourite Psalms. One of the most delicously morbid parts of the bible. I don't know if it was originally intended that way, but some things I still have a taste for and like to interperet a certain way...

here goes.. its got no name yet..


verse 1.
Flowers that fade in the dawn, the dawn
And from the dust we are formed , are formed
The ground remembers no more, no more
the heroes that triumphed before, before

Chorus.
His love everlasting from year, to year
It resonates over despair, despair
His love everlasting from age to age
It resonates on every page yes page

Verse 2
The Lord is compassionate, gracious and kind
Turn to him now and then you will find
That he loves you so much that he gave up his Son
He chose you to love, yes you are the one

CHORUS


I recorded a little clip of me singing it, but I'm not very good. Maybe if I practice it a bit more I'll be brave enough to put it up.

Compassionate and gracious

another one. I'm out of paper! better go do something else... spent too much money this week...

a time to dance

A time to weep

and a time to laugh.

A time to mourn

and a time to DANCE.

(Im making art for our church garage sale today.)

4 days work

Hey... I can write in my

blogg while I'm waiting for my photo's to upload. Isn't that cool?

I can't believe these took 4 days to make. Hope theyre happy with them. I'm kinda looking forward to Catherine going to school. Honestly... I turned my back for a second and when I turned around she was rolling a blue roller all over that board. Lucky it was dry. I'm trying to enjoy her last days at home with me now. I spent alot of her childhood unhappy and worrying about my future... so I'm doing my best to enjoy her. She's actually turning into a lovely girl...

Janet ponders life...

and then she doesnt....

Me time

Yay! Wool! Just bought a huge stack of wool in the end of season sale at Spotlight. I'm planning to make a jumper for me and one for Catherine.Also finally managed to finish putting the lock on my door... or so I thought... but it won't lock from the outside and I can't figure out why! It's doing half it's job though. Every evening I lock my door so I can enjoy sleep right until the moment I wake up without a little body jumping in with me at 6am and wriggling around and pulling all my blankets off while a groggly start the day by growling at her in my sleep!

I've decided to be kind to myself. I need sleep. I'm gonna get it. I need time alone like a fish needs water... so I've started giving it to myself. It's a bit of that new-age, wishy washy sentiment... you can't love others if you're not loving yourself. In a way its kind of true. When I was never giving myself "me" time I was yelling and screaming every day... getting to breaking point but not allowing myself to walk away... and what am I teaching Cathering if I let her walk all over me and not teach her that there are some people in the world who can't be social all the time?

The spring has sprung!

The Spring has sprung

The grass has ris.

The boyd is on the wing.

The boyd is on the wing? But that's obsoyd

The wing is on the boyd!

Sunny side!

Ok... I probably shouldn't 'vent' on my blog (see previous post). I know what my problem is. I carry around the next 14 years on my back. I know youre not supposed to do that. God gives grace for each day as it comes. Putting that into practice is the hard part. You know ... it's a beautiful sunny day right now.. and it IS peaceful.
The old guys had it right. Here's some lyrics from an old song I like to sing sometimes:

There's a dark and a troubled side to life
There's a bright and a sunny side too
THough we meet with the darkness and strife
The sunny side we also may view

Keep on the sunny side, Always on the sunny side
Keep on the sunny side of life
It will help us every day
It will brighten all the way
If we keep on the sunny side of life

The storm and its fury break today
Crushing hopes that we cherish so dear
Clouds and storms will in time pass away
The sun agian will shine bright and clear.


Theres also a bible verse that I feel is for me:
"Weeping may stay for the night, but joy comes in the morning"
God must shake His head at me sometimes. How quickly I forget. 7 years of schizophrenia and I complain about this??

new toy for the toy box.

It's Father's day tomorrow... so I bought me something cool. I think I deserve it. Catherine is at a friends house today. I woke up at 11.00 and I could hear a pin drop. I love it. Most days I don't think I'm coping and I don't know what to do... maybe I should ask for help more often but I don't want to burden anyone... (gee... now I know why old people say that...). I need silence and PEACE once in a while.... what to do??