Saturday, August 31, 2013

Say what?

I didn't suffer the most???? Ok. Dumb thing to say, I know. Considering the bigger picture of history, and all the unbelievable suffering that's gone on. People living and dying in slavery for example (That still happens by the way).
BUT. In my defense, you become like the people you hang out with, and Catherine's Dad's stupid attitudes have really rubbed off on me and I'm really trying to change them!!
Once, early on in our relationship I mentioned to him how lucky we were to live in New Zealand. (My Dad always brought me up to realise how privilidged I was, even to have running water in our taps), and you know what he said? "I think I'm suffering worse than them"!!
So bare with me when I say stupid, uninsightful things.. I'm try to change.. it's just a slow, slow process!!!

3 comments:

dcpeg said...

Do you really want/need this man in your life? Just asking. . .

Janney said...

oh, were not together, but i see him several times a week when i drop catherine off. But what I'm saying is the influence he had on me still remains and it's taking time to reprogramme some attitudes I've developed over the years...

dcpeg said...

Glad to hear you're not with him anymore. I had a relationship that turned out to be impossible and it DID take alot of time to move on. Hope your recovery is much quicker!