I'm a fool...

I'm a fool!! Everything I am hearing is telling me I DON'T have the answers and God is not obliged to tell me. Why are there still births to loving parents? Why do bad things happen to good people? Why does God heal someone's back, but they still have constant headaches? Why does God allow child abuse? Why is God silent when we need Him most? Why do the innocent suffer? Why are people born with diseases? Why is nature so cruel? Why do people kill each other? and why does God allow it all?
God is not obliged to tell me and if I think I know I'm kidding myself? We may never know in this life. I just need to leave it in God's hands, let Him be God, and just take Him at His word, when He says He IS good.