Friday, March 6, 2009

My life through the lense of the bible

Wow. I spelt physcology wrong 3 times in that last post. Oh well. I have something new to write about which I will copy straight from my diary:
I have a passage marked and outlined in red in my bible - dated 13 Nov 2001. It's from Isaiah 50, and it says "But now, all you who light fires and provide yourselves with flaming torches, go, walk in the light of your fires and of the torches you have set ablaze. This is what you shall recieve from my hand: you will lie down in torment".
Interestingly enough - that's the last verse I read before I lost my mind and for 7 years - was in torment. Whether that was from God,or just the result of twisted thinking, I don't know - but that's what happened anyway.
Tonight I have just dated another verse 4 chapters later. I'm not really that great at knowing when the Holy Spirit is speaking to me (because often I will rationalise it as a "fluke") but I was just thinking to myself, that it seemed as if during my illness that God totally ditched me. Then I looked down at my bible and it said "For a brief moment I abandoned you, but with deep compassion I will bring you back. In a surge of anger I hid my face from you for a moment , but with everlasting kindness I will have compassion on you" says the Lord your Redeemer". I don't know if that's what happened - but it fits in exactly to my life experience from my viewpoint.
It was actually you (Luarna... my one "blog follower" haha) who said to me "Don't marry Nigel, he doesn't love you". What I really wanted to hear were the words "Don't marry Nigel. God doesn't want you to". But I thougth that that was the closest thing I was going to get from anyone, and your life being bang-on with God, I took it as the word of God, and that was my first step of obedience and BAM! God was back in my life. Yeah - that verse REALLY describes my experience.


Luarna said...

Wow. I had no idea. Just had a thought though. remember that Isiah si the old testament. which means that it the old coventant of God with his people. You adn me live under a new covenant one different from teh old because of jesus blood. and in teh new testament it sayd "never will i leave you or forsake you" never, never NEVER! never ever! that Devil is sheming liar and he may have had you convinced, but he is in big trouble now. Cause you are moving on and moving up and i can see that you wont be taking anymore of his CRAP! I am so excited about you.

Janney said...

Hey Lu. I know about new covenant and old covenant - but I believe that the old testament reveals alot about God that the new testement alone cannot reveal. I believe the old testement can only be understood by knowing Jesus (in the new), and would have been completely misunderstood back then, but now we can understand it through with a new understanding. I think what I'm trying to say is "God disaplines the son He loves", then AND now... and that is a new testement quote btw :) I think I'll email you this comment incase you don't get. Thanks tho :)